Yesterday was hard. It was a happy day...Noah's sixth birthday...but I still just fell apart when I went to bed. I am mad. I am heartbroken. I am sad. Sad that I will never make a birthday cake with Finley's name on it. Sad that I will never get to watch her eyes dance as she opens her presents. So many things I won't get to do. I know that I will have those opportunities someday...but I am selfish and I want it THIS day. I just miss her...so much.
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1 week ago
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Since I can't be there in person, I am sending lots of love and hugs your way :) My heart and prayers go out to you, when those hard times arise. Thinking of you always!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Remember you are loved! xo
I'm so sorry Shae!! Wish I could take away the pain for you! What special people you are to be blessed with a little baby that was so perfect she didn't have to live in this crazy world! You guys really are special people!
I think about you alot!!
That is the beauty of the Plan of Salvation and the eternal family unit, to know that kids (all 5 of them) are your's and Nathan's for eternity. That there will be a time in the not to distant furture where you will have the privilidge of holding and raising Finley at a time where you can focus on raising her. Several years ago when Kathy's family held a family reunion in Nauvoo I was greatly impressed with a privallion that over looks the Mississippi River at the end of Parley Street, the names of all the saints who died crossing the plains are listed on the walls. I thought of leaving a loved family member along the trail side knowing that not only would they never see that family mmeber again during this life, but that they wouldn't even be able visit the grave site, or be able to protect it.
While in such a state I had a feeling of complete peace come over me, knowing that through Christ's atoinment and the plan of salvation families are eternal in nature and that through the sealing power of the Priesthood we will be as and with family members again. That has been a great comfort to me several times since then. Trust in the Lord and ask him to take up your load and make them light and bearable and he will provide the streneth needed. You are greatly loved and appreciated. Dad
I really appreciate what your Dad said. What a wise man. I too, feel as you do many days. How could we not? We love them more than we EVER EVER got to show them.
Love you Shae.
TEARS!! Reading your post and the comments just makes me cry! I can't even imagine what you are going through right now! That is every Mother's fear... losing a baby or child and feeling that emptiness. My heart goes out and aches for you and your family, so sorry for your loss! And, what a beautiful name for such a beautiful, sweet spirit! Hang in there! Love ya!
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